it's time for me to move to a new place where nobody knows what i'm writing, where i can spill my hearts out completely.

on christmas i met this new guy. he's cute, fit, funny, sweet, hardworking and we have lots in common. it's been two weeks plus since we've known each other, and he tells me he really likes me. the feeling is pretty much mutual, and i feel really blissful when i'm around him. whenever i'm lost and i don't know what i want to do, he's the alternative to meeting my ex. and the thing is, i really look forward to meeting him, so i wouldn't consider it a replacement. perhaps i have a tendency to rush into relationships, but i do see a potential in this one.

we've been going out almost everyday for the past two weeks; i make him laugh, he makes me laugh. i can be retarded and stupid when i'm with him, and he accepts me for all the vulgarities and crudeness that i throw around when we're with our friends. he scolds me for smoking, accompanies me to drink, and sends me home safely afterwards. he used to listen to my rants about my ex, but recently they've died down as i start liking him more and more.

i made him sing out loud with me in the car, hugged him while he was driving, even took him to the balestier bak kut teh place. i did all the things my ex used to do with me, and at first i did it to remind myself of my ex. but today as i held his hand while he was driving, it felt different. i've stopped comparing him to my ex. x was right - my ex had a 7 month head start against other guys, so it wouldn't be fair if i kept comparing. he read his notes in my bed today and yesterday while i read my book, and it felt really cosy and sweet. those were the things i never got to do with my ex, so i guess it's a head start on his part? haha.

dear blog. it does sound all so wonderful and fairytalish doesn't it? there's just one really, really huge problem.

he has a girlfriend.

a two and a half years girlfriend, for that matter. he told me he loves her, yet he's still going out with me. for some strange unfathomable reason, i just can't seem to bring myself to care about that. i love his company, and he makes me forget about my ex (i don't think it's in the rebound sense). s tells me he's just playing with me to 'get into my pants', but i choose not to think so. i don't want to think so, that'd hurt too much. maybe i'm too naive, but i believe this one.

it' almost 6 in the morning. i should get some sleep. i just want somebody there for me, is that too much to ask for?

i'm studying at wcp quiznos now with joy. well, technically speaking i'm reading my notes while she's msning her cute guy and watching movies. unfortunately, i gave up reading math; all the formulae are insane.

i just finished compiling a list of 'clubbing' songs for the upcoming ihg opening ceremony, courtesy of gangyi, who suggested that 'clubbing' songs are less boring than traditional motivation songs. i guess there can only be two scenarios from such a playlist - one, everybody will play along and have fun walking to the music, two, everyone will give the 'what-the-fuck?' face and the whole event will fold. oh well, i'm just following my ic's instructions.

oh, and we have to choreograph a simple dance to open the ceremony. god save me. it's probably going to end up looking damn cheesy and the whole world will just roll around the floor laughing =(

dear blog, it's 2011. sarah, joy and i made a pact never to let a guy break our heart this year; i'll make sure i live up to that. it might also be good to make a resolution on smoking and drinking less, but i don't know how the former will fit in when the exams come around. the latter has become a form of socializing, so it's relatively healthy as we drink in small amounts. ha. the lousy excuses one comes up with when one fails to give up one's vices. well, i'm not going to fret about my health for the time being. as long as my cap miraculously shoots up to 4.8, i don't really care about anything else.

maybe 2011 i'll live my life out as a player. hee hee. but i always end up feeling bad for the guy so danggggg. okay we're gna meet seetow and claire for dinner now so toodles.